Friday, November 14, 2008

Honestly

I feel REALLY good. I tried out another medication and from what I've experienced today...it is AWESOME! My mind seems more focused, I feel motivated to do things, and I don't feel completely strung out! I know it seems pretty bad for me to have to be on a medication to feel semi-normal...but this is GREAT! I just feel like a HUGE weight was taken off my shoulders, like I can actually feel alive again. Of course I'm going to be a bit leary for a little bit, until I know how its going to completely effect me, but I can honestly say that for the first time, in a REALLY long time I actually feel like I might have a chance at feeling normal.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

About me

Who Are You?
Name: Stephanie Linn Bonds

Zodiac Sign: Taurus

Rising Sign: Capricorn Rising

Birth Year: 1982

Birthplace: Bentonville, AR

Hometown: The world

Is your Hometown a small town, rural town, suburb, city, or inner-city: world-wide

Highschool(s): Salina HS

Are you the eldest, middle, youngest or only child?: Eldest

Heritage: mutt

What Do You Look Like:

Hair Color: Strawberry Ash blonde with Platinum & Red highlights

Eye Color: blue

Skin tone: white

Face Shape: oval?

Height: 6 ft

Weight: more than I'd like to be...less than I used to be

Shoe size: 9 1/2 or 10, depending on the style

What Makes You Tick:
What aspect of your personality do you like best? My confidence

Which aspect of your personality do you like the least? my procrastination and need for perfection in things I do

What are some things about other people that annoy you? lying, strong-arming, rudeness

What are some things about you that might annoy people? my optimism

When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? A high school teacher, a mom, and a wife

What is your favorite time of day? When the kids are peacefully sleeping or playing together wonderfully

Are your parents still together, never were together or divorced: Divorced, my mom has re-married, my dad passed last year

How do you handle arguments/disagreements with other people? depends on my hormones, and who the other person is

Would say you are more extroverted or introverted? depends on the situation

Are you spiritual? If yes, is your spirituality influenced by organized religion? I am spiritual, I'm working on it

Name one of your physical traits that you would change if you could: Just one? my weight

Name one of your physical traits that you really like: height and eyes, I can't choose one

Name something you'd like to do before you die: watch my children grow-up, get married, and have their own children

If you could back in time to any point of history, where would you go and why? I don't know that I would...I'd say back to the day I hooked up with my ex and just walk away...but then I wouldn't have Mikeal and well, I wouldn't change that for the world

Have you ever experienced anything supernatural? yes

Are you close to your family members? I'd like to be, most of them make it difficult or impossible

Name some things in life that you are afraid of? snakes

What is your biggest life issue right now? I don't know that I can pick the biggest one....

What Do You Like?
Colors: red

Scents: Cool Water Cologne for men, otherwise, in general, I like the smells of baking

TV Channels: CBS, Fox

Cars: I love to drool over the newer Chargers, but I'm also a sucker for classic HotRods

PC Games: Rappelz...when I think about it.

Snack Foods: jello with fruit or cashews

Beverages: Mt Dew, Coke, water, coffee, various alcoholic ones.

Game Consoles: XBox 360 & Nintendo Game Cube...although I kinda want a Wii

Concerts: not sure I can pick a fav

Conversation Topics: During the election: politics...since then, to piss me off : the economy and these shithead bailouts; otherwise, mommy stuff and new recipes

Newspapers: I get the Delaware County Journal once in a while, which reminds me, I hope to remember to get one tomorrow, as my baby brother is supposed to be in it.

Magazines: Cosmo

Flowers: Roses and Lilies

Radio Stations: Depends on my mood.. there are several I flip threw when I'm thinking about it, mainly 104.5

Jewelry: my wedding ring and a necklace with the kids' birthstones on them

Restaurants: Ruby Tuesday and Chili's

Clubs: which ever one I happen to go to with friends

Websites: The Mom Retreat & MySpace, mainly

CDs: Famous by Puddle of Mudd

Vacation spots: where ever I can actually relax...sometimes just having a couple of quiet hours before bed is enough of a vacation to me

TV commercials: the ones for Guitar Hero World Tour...they crack me up

Radio Commercials: I don't pay close enough attention

Museums: Har-Ber Village

Stores: Wal-Mart?

Outdoor Activities: I'm pretty good and up for about anything....

Do You Like...
Seafood? yes

Sushi? yes

Mexican Food? yes

Italian Food? yes

Chinese Food? yes

Japanese Food? yes

German Food? when I'm in the mood

Greek Food? yes, I am so craving a Greek salad and a Gyro

Polish Food? eh

Mongolian Food? not sure...but its likely I do/would

Barbecue? depends

Cajun Food ? ocassionally

Soul Food? sure

Vegan Food? eh, I'm a meat eater

Cake? Sure

Cheese? yes, I like it

Jalapenos? in my chili

Artichokes? never ate em

Caesar Salad? Its alright

Anchovies? ewwwwwwwwww

Rabbit? too gamey

Deer? LOVE IT!

Bison? its alright

Lamb? yes

Duck? I have one in the freezer for one of these days....

Do You Play...
Baseball? used to

Softball? used to

Basketball? used to, still do ocassionally

Football? sometimes

Hockey? never have

Soccer? never have

Monopoly? I can beat most anyone...no one will play with me anymore....

Checkers? I play with Mikeal once in a while

Chess? Love it! Going to teach Mikeal before too long...granted I can find all the pieces

Scrabble? I'm alright at it.

Trivial Pursuit? People hate me for this one

Poker? I suck at it

Guitar? I would love to, but I love listening to Brian play even more.

Flute? No

Clarinet? No

Piano? No

Violin? If my hands weren't screwed up...I did play the fiddle, not much different

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Pumpkin Fudge

OMG! I ran across this recipe the other day online and decided I'd try it as I have TONS of fresh pumpkin waiting to be used for things...this is to die for awesome!

Ingredients

* 2 cups sugar
* 1/4 teaspoon cornstarch
* 1/2 cup evaporated milk
* 2 tablespoons pumpkin, fresh or canned puree
* 1/4 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice
* 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

How to Make Pumpkin Fudge

1. Mix sugar, pumpkin, pumpkin pie spice, cornstarch and milk in a two quart saucepan stirring frequently, over medium heat.
2. Continue to stir and cook until a candy thermometer registers 234 degrees..or just past boiling and the sugar isn't quite grainy anymore.
3. Mix in vanilla.
4. Place the saucepan in a container of ice water until the thermometer falls to 110 degrees...let sit in ice water until only warm to the touch.
5. Mix until the fudge loses its glossy appearance.
6. Pour the mixture into a greased 8 x 8 x 2-inch baking sheet and allow to cool.
7. When the fudge is completely cooled, score and cut into 20 pieces.


Its like combining fudge and pumpkin pie