Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Mirena Drama

Well...I didn't miss my appointment today.

But the damned thing was not removed.

I have to go have an ultrasound done on the 16th or 17th to see if it's even still here. *sigh*

If it's in there then I'll have to find a gyn to remove it. That procedure could be as "simple" as them physically forcing my cervix open and pulling it out to me having to be put under anesthesia, my cervix being dilated and the Mirena basically surgically removed.

If it's not in there then I suppose all is well and hopefully AF shows her face OR they see a heartbeat at the ultrasound appointment.

I'm going to buy a few tests in the next week or so. IF my calculations are correct AND the Mirena has fallen out I should see AF no later than the 10th if I'm not already pregnant.

I've had the Mirena for a little over 2 years and in that two years I have felt pregnant every month when AF would be due, but never any bleeding. Back on the 6th-8th of this month I had what could be called just a bit of spotting, but it was brown blood...but still the biggest hint of an AF than I've had for the last two years. I also didn't go through my monthly "normal false pregnancy" symptoms this month. I also should be ovulating this week but haven't really noticed it like I have every month for the last two years....but right now everything feels sore and bruised anyways from all the "jacking" poking, and prodding that was done to me a few hours ago in their search for the Mirena strings.

I've always said I prefer "surprise" pregnancies over trying to plan for one and that I'd "ideally" get pregnant before going to have the Mirena removed, by it falling out and me getting pregnant and being none the wiser...Now I get to wonder if that actually happened... It'll be Friday, at the earliest, before I can get some tests...

I'm taking a test on Friday...then if it's negative I'll be taking one a week and the morning of my ultrasound...just so that I'm not "shocked" if a heartbeat or at least a bean shows on the ultrasound...

But mostly praying that if I do get a + result that the Mirena isn't in there... If the Mirena does show AND a pregnancy shows I have to go have the Mirena removed. Either way with it still there and a pregnancy my chances are 50/50 of the pregnancy not being viable. *sigh* 50% if I leave the Mirena in there for the pregnancy and 50% if I have it taken out.

My best options at this point are 1) I'm pregnant and the Mirena fell out beforehand 2) I'm not pregnant and AF shows her face if the Mirena isn't there 3) the Mirena is there, I'm not pregnant, and the strings are able to be found and it easily-ish is removed....those are my "best" scenarios.

Worst case scenarios: 1) The Mirena is there and I'm pregnant, hence the reason my cervix is closed up tight and the strings aren't visible to be pulled because my uterus has grown 2)The Mirena is there, but I'm going to have to have to be put under anesthesia, be dialated, and it removed 3) not be put under and they force it open to remove the Mirena.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Tiny Minds go with Tiny Towns

So we moved to the westside of Nashville at the end of February from an itty bitty dying town in Oklahoma...you're that far up to speed, right?

We live in a nice big house, kids are growing, life is grand. Brian quit the stupid company that kept leading him on that they were actually going to give him a deserved promotion, a decent wage - heck, after 3 years he was still making less than new teenagers off the street who didn't know shit, but yet because he needed to work and was good at the job he stayed with it...no other options in a small town.

So today I call Grandpa David and talk to him about some information I found out about Mikaila and her speech delays.

He goes on to tell me about one of the small minds that works for the same company that Brian used to work for, but at a different store, so never actually worked WITH Brian. David had gone into the store to get something for his truck...and the tiny mind at the counter went on to spew his bullshit.

Apparently Brian and I are now divorced because I'm a wretched wench. Hmm...if you were to ask me I'd say our marriage is MUCH MUCH better than it has been in a LONG time because of these tiny minded influences.

Brian has also apparently been fired from his job and is now living with his dad....I've ran off with the kids to who knows where.

What makes it even more laughable is the fact that the guy spewing the sewage didn't work at the same store as Brian. I've only seen him a handful of times. And he wasn't a guy that Brian really hung out with...I've only seen the guy a small handful of times when I'd go into that store for something. So, it's safe to say that he knows neither Brian nor myself.

And he's spilling all these "juicy details" to Grandpa David...a man that I talk to on a semi regular basis, I talk to Grandma Pennye MUCH more often for long periods of time. David also keeps up with me on FaceBook...so is quite aware of what I'm doing and upto on a regular basis.

Man...how I wish I could of been a fly on that wall when he laid into him and got him caught up on the real facts.

But it also goes to prove some of my suspicions...I've left that town a number of times...and every time I wind up back there I have to kinda cock my head to the side and raise an eyebrow at some of the things people have asked me about my life since leaving that town... I'm quite the popular subject around there, and I'm not even a native to the town, NOR have I EVER slept with anything from that town. I moved not far from there when I was 12 from out-of-state - about 15 miles from there - and went to school another 15 miles beyond that town, so 30 miles away....moved away for a while. Came back to the area when I was about 23, lived in the small minded town for almost a year - MAN that year sure did leave some impressions...I guess... Lets see...I refused to date or sleep with anyone. I worked at the processing plant aka chicken slaughter house. Didn't go out. Didn't drink. Didn't do much of anything. Didn't even have my own vehicle. Moved back a little over a year later, got married there, had Mikaila there, left about two and a half years later...aka the end of February this year...

hmmm...Sure is nice being a small town celebrity...

Friday, May 14, 2010

According to Mikaila....

...Daddy's boxer briefs make a very interesting skirt...

...Mommy's bra makes for a great baby carrier...

...Butter is the perfect cleaning product...

...Clothes are completely optional...

...Showers are blissful, not to mention great fun...

...Baths are only worth it anymore if Big Brother can play too...

...Shoes are mandatory, the more shoes the better...

...Playing in the dirt is as important as powdering your nose....

...There is nothing better than splashing in puddles...

...Driving by Daddy's workplace, without stopping, is strictly forbidden...

...Talking is overrated. Making everyone guess is much more entertaining...

...Brushing your teeth should be a day long activity, so what if you run out of toothpaste by dinnertime...

...It's still a toss up on whether veggies or pastas are better, but sweets are best...

...If throwing a tantrum doesn't work, kill them with uber cuteness...

...Stand your ground and be patient, eventually they will cave...

...Getting clean and polished up to go out is overrated...

...Watch Mommy carefully, she knows where the good stuff is hidden...

...Bubba is tall, he can reach the good stuff when Mommy isn't looking...

...Share with Bubba anyways, even if his chores aren't done yet, you start playing sooner...

...All fences have an escape route...

and to conclude this post :

...When the music plays stop what you're doing and DANCE!...



Thursday, May 6, 2010

Miss me?

I know it's been a whole month. I have PLENTY to blog about, that's not the problem. Between being on dial-up, appointments for the kids, my own school work, hanging out with friends, hanging out with the husband, enjoying spring, dealing with spring and it's tendency to rain just a *little* bit too much once in a while, household chores, school work, and being outside I've greatly neglected my blogs.

I'll get back in the swing of it...eventually.

Right now it's 2am. I've been up since 7am. The boy FINALLY has school again, for the first time this week, due to the rain over the weekend, so I must get out of bed, tread upstairs, awaken him from his slumber and make sure he actually puts on CLEAN clothes for school, at 6 in the morning.

Just in time for the girl to arose from her slumber, granted she's still sleeping on the loveseat by that time and not laying on my chest. She migrated roughly an hour ago to the loveseat. Daddy is sleeping ever so loudly on the couch.

Those two make a great pair. They have the purring capacity of an old worn out diesel engine Dodge that's missing it's tailpipes. And sleep through each other like gravy on biscuits.

Ironically I've never ONCE heard the boy snore. I kinda miss the nights where I was a single mom and he'd crawl into the bed...no scratch that, I don't...the boy may not snore, but at 18 months old he could kick me out of a king size bed quicker than I could move to the other side away from his swift long legs and pointy elbows. I can at least wear ear plugs for the other two, without quite so many bruises.

So my excuse for neglecting my blog is simple. I'm on dial-up, give me a break. Anything I do attempt to do online takes 900 times longer and I get 4000 times more frustrated and just plain annoyed with being online. Then there are my classes. I'm going to school ONLINE. Every last little tidbit of my classes are ONLINE. INCLUDING the books I have to purchase. They're e-books. I'm now currently out of ink from printing pages from these books. Between the paper, that I've mastered printing on both sides to use and the ink I'm thinking that it would of been cheaper had I just bought the damned things, both online and physically. Alas that was not an option. Then there's those social network sites...Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, other people's blogs, and forums that I'm a member of that I make some sort of half-assed attempt to keep up with. I really don't for the most part. MySpace is eh at best. Facebook is alright, I do well with it. Twitter, when I remember about it sitting there are a little blue dot at the corner of my browser...or blue boxes that pop up, just as I'm trying to click a link right here...blogger...well, I just spent the last few hours catching up on a blog that entertains me greatly! WhyIsDaddyCrying ....you'll have to look him up, I've already closed the window to link it, and I suck at coming back and editing my blogs. ESPECIALLY blog entries that I write as my contacts are drying out and I've resolved to not smoke another cigarette...starting roughly an hour ago...yes, I'm serious....and I'm horribly sleep deprived. The sleep I got late last week because I was shitting piss dog ass sick was HEAVEN.

Anyways. I'm seemingly ALWAYS online, but never getting anywhere because of this crappy dial-up.

Other news, that I will be posting pictures of and having a piece to say about...that rain I talked about earlier...the rainfall was 18 inches in less than 36 hours. Many communities in and surrounding Nashville, TN are annihilated. Opryland Hotel - under 10 foot of water. Complete sections of the highway - sitting on people's rooftops or just sunk 20 feet down a sink hole or maybe have even found their way to Alabama by now. They're calling it a 100 year flood.

Still yet other news...the week before the flood my husband's hometown, where his father and many family members still live, was also ass-raped. Not by flood waters, but by an EF3 tornado. Ironically, on exactly the same date (April 24, I believe), 102 years ago the town of Albertville, AL was hit by a massive tornado that devastated it....the real kicker - both storms took almost the exact same path all the way through town. I have pictures of this too.

So, while it may seem that I've been quite neglectful rest assure that I am only neglecting my blog because I have other fish to fry, and those fish are a bit more important right now.