Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Spring is In the Air

And therefore TONS of work to get done!

I've gotten both of my raised beds built and filled with dirt, plants, and seeds! Brian has been working on tilling the area that I'm going to be putting in my in ground garden.

In my raised beds I have strawberries, a few pepper plants, lettuce, spinach, broccoli, cauliflower, turnips, and radishes. I'm going to be putting my tomatoes, the rest of my pepper plants, cucumber hills, watermelon, cantaloupes, and onions in the ground itself.

Here in the next few weeks after I get settled into a good school routine, get more dirt, etc I'll be doing some container gardens on the porch, using my old tote boxes that I no longer have a real need for...I'm not too sure what I'll be putting in them yet, but it'll be fun when I do decide!

Brian's also decided its time for a change of employers. He was offered better pay and more consistent hours at a competitor store and should be starting within the next week there!

Fun times are in the air! Mikeal goes on Spring Break on Monday, the 5th...I start school on Monday the 5th, and Brian starts his new job then! Now for me to get to work on my first homework's due on Monday as well!

Thursday, March 25, 2010


Here is the scene: Mikaila is laying all her babies down for a nap. I've been trying to get her down for one for the last 3 hours, and have given up, she'll go to bed easier later...

She's in there singing to her babies
Covering them up
and laying down with them, fake snoring...

I go in there to check on her....ask her if she's going to go night nights with her babies....

She then puts one finger over her mouth and tells me to shush! While with her other hand is pointing at me and basically telling me to get out!...

And now she's grabbed up the cat, put the cat in a box and is trying to convince the cat that it needs to nap in the box.


So she came out a bit ago and told me to be quiet...then grabs the broom, and my hand. Takes me to her bedroom, and starts picking up the toys, etc, all while telling me to shhhh... and pointing for me to help her pick up her toys....

At least her room is finally clean....

It also proves to me that she knows what I do when she's napping, seeing as the house is in shambles when she goes down, and by the time she wakes up it's nice and clean again.

She put her babies down for a nap, cleaned her room (with my assistance, of course), and now her babies are up from their nap again, playing...recreating the mess.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


I finally got through the financial aid portion of the application, I do qualify for enough that if I space my classes appropriately I'll have very minimal, if any, out of my pocket cost until after I graduate...MAJOR bonus there!

BUT the biggest surprise came when she was explaining my credits to me, apparently I already have 8 credits that transfer in, here I was just thinking I didn't have any. I'm assuming now that some of the classes I did take while in high school did count as credits afterall! WOOT! So I'm already 8 credits further along than I had expected and I haven't even started yet!

Got the Call!

I've been ACCEPTED!!!!

Classes start on April 5!


The Entrance Exam

I had to take my entrance exam today to get into the school I applied for. I didn't quite study as I've only had about 3 SUPER busy days to prepare for it, then woke up with a nasty sinus issue thing going on this morning, and not much sleep, so I wasn't expecting a lot out of today, but was confident.

I am proud to say that I passed! With FLYING colors!

The minimum scores I could get without having to retake the tests are:
Arithmetic - 36
Reading - 54
Sentence Skills - 60

I ended up with a :
Arithmetic - 107
Reading - 103
Sentence Skills - 94

In the words of Mikaila: "Yippee, woohoo!" With a little happy dance to go with it!

Now just to wait on the Admissions guy to get in the office and give me a call with what to do next!!!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Ambitions Running on High

I'm going to be getting started on my garden placement today! I picked up some wooden pallets from a tile company the other day in Nashville for free, so I'm going to be tearing those apart to build my temporary raised beds with today. (Temporary meaning most likely for this year only since I'm short on funds this year to do some nice treated timber ones.) I'm also going to design out some container beds for the deck and start work on those maybe tomorrow.

I also got Mikeal's room oil soaped and waxed today, as well as the playroom. Maybe next year we'll be able to sand the floors down and put a new coat of varnish on them and seal them up nicely. They're not horrible right now, but the floors definitely look their age. I'll be working on Mikaila's room at some point in time this's just difficult to do it with her "help"....

Otherwise I'm just going to be getting all the laundry caught up...

Yea that's right Katie...I'm such trash, I went from not having the water capabilities to run a washer to being able to do as many loads of laundry in a day as my heart desires. My children all have their own bedroom, not to mention Brian and I aren't having to sleep in the living room or dining room because we don't have the space for our children to be comfortable. I'm such trash that my husband works full time to provide for us all while being a responsible tax paying member of society so that where we may get government assistance on things such as healthcare for the kids we do try to do what we can to contribute to those funds, with the taxes he pays in on his wages.

I'm also going to be starting school so that I can better not just my life but also the lives of my children and so that when I start having grandchildren I can be there for my children as well as be able to spoil my grandchildren...not treat my children like they owe me now that they're grown and I used the government's funds to pay for their upbringing, now it's their turn to pay for my livelihood later in life. Although you probably will likely start to feel the pinch as your older children start to move out, or decide they no longer wish to live with you and are able to choose to go elsewhere, then you're no longer receiving the benefits you get on them nor the child support. Randall will at some point in time get tired of your controlling ways and grow some balls and stand up to you for himself and those babies. Then what? You'll go back to your old ways of how you were able to snag him? Play the field get knocked a few more times, draw charity and government help with raising them, then eventually find another man to take sympathy on you, or maybe you'll get lucky on the first go around, you'll tell the guy you're pregnant and he'll feel he has to do the right thing by you and the child and marry you, then you've won again...yeah, that's REALLY classy!

I'm such trash that if my husband needs to go do something or even just wants to go do something he'll volunteer to take a child or even both with him, I don't have to guilt him, call him no good and worthless, and berate him into taking all of the children with him. Afterall he can see by my actions of ME keeping the house clean, MY going and doing the grocery shopping, MY ability to get things done without forcing him to hold my hand or berating him into doing this because it's **boohoo**oh so hard to take care of my home and children while I'm sitting on my ass at the computer gossiping with whomever will talk to me and stalking anyone that calls me out on my bullshit crazy.

I'm also such trash that my "planning to lose weight" involves more than just giving lip service to saying I am going to start walking 5 minutes a day or I'm going to quit drinking Kool-aid and soda. I can do that much walking just by taking my laundry down to the washer and bringing it back up the stairs to fold and put away. I make real lifestyle changes that are easy to incorporate, that don't throw my body into shock, I allow myself things like sweets and sodas, but I don't keep them stocked in the house very often, and when they are I only eat one or two or drink maybe one soda in a day. Water is always available to drink or if I want some flavor to it I know how to make up a nice batch of lemonade without having to add in two cups of sugar and artificial flavoring. I make my meals often from scratch so I know what is in every bite I eat. My family doesn't eat it's meals crowded around the TV, most often the TV isn't even on. I spend my time running and playing with my children, not sitting on a bench in the shade telling them to leave me alone. I also incorporate regular dedicated cardio workouts that my children enjoy with me.

My relationship with my husband is awesome. It's not perfect, but it keeps me satisfied and happy at the end of the day. We're able to talk about anything without my having to throw dishes at him, I recognize that he's an adult and is perfectly capable of making his own decisions on everything. I don't berate him by throwing away all his clothes that I don't feel are good enough. If he's not able to provide something for us we either go without or make due with what we can afford, yea that meant I had to house my family in a tiny two bedroom house with a faulty water well that limited what we could do at home...but that only lasted about two years, we made do and in the end we were able to better ourselves. That's called growing up and being mature. You really shouldn't go through life thinking that because you have a certain expectation that everyone's going to lay down and give you want you want...this is the real world, a person has to work for what they want and need, and just like in the real world that takes a partnership, not a dictatorship.

Its also so super trashy of me that my grandparents are all deceased and my mother is having to start her life back over as well from nothing, that I can't go writing threatening letters and crying to any of them to pay my rent because I'm too lazy to allow my husband to go out and do what he has to do to provide for us so that I can stay home with our beautiful children. Then there are those times that he's unable to work due to injuries, I still don't go asking anyone for a handout...*I*, as my husband's partner, go out and make sure my family will be taken care of in the events he's unable to do that portion, and in turn he picks up where I'm not able to at home while I'm out working and providing for us. Right now he's working, but I know that at any time that can change, so instead of looking for a way for someone else to provide for my family *I* am bettering myself and improving upon my abilities so that not only can I contribute to my family to better it, but I'm also able to provide for my family in the event Brian is unable to for ANY reason. Within the next few weeks I'll not only be starting school but I'll also be working, all while also taking care of my household, ensuring that there are good meals on the table eat night, ensuring that they all have clean clothes to wear, and a clean house to come home to.

I'm such trash that at not even 30 years old I suffer from acute arthritis, depression, anxiety, and other health issues, up to and including being a bit overweight that I am not going to let those things get in my way of making sure my children, husband, and myself are taken care of. I can make excuses all day long to be LAZY, but being lazy isn't going to do anything for anyone, not even myself, but bring us all down and make me lazier.

I know you FORBID me from speaking of you, even on my own blog, but you know, this is America. In America there is this set of laws and rights given to all citizens of this country, some of the BIGGEST ones are the freedom of speech and the freedom from oppression. I'm free to express how I feel and to call things how they are, just as you're free to go ahead and call your names, gossip, stalk, play your poor pity me mind games with some point in time you're going to have to get out of the middle school playground and realize that this is the real world, it's an adult world, not MTV, and petty playground antics aren't going to get you anywhere, at least not anywhere worthwhile.

I made the choice to give a good show of playing by your rules, I really don't care one way or the other how you choose to live your life, but I had some things to get off my chest, some points to make and some lines to draw. Your decisions don't really directly affect me, they do annoy me from time to time, but I don't let those annoyances consume my life or relationships. I know it greatly upset you that I removed the ability to post anonymously to my blog, but I'll repeat myself, this is an adult world, I don't play childish games with grown adults. Children hide from things they're scared of, especially the truth, adults come out and face them head on then do something about it, I'm doing things to improve my life and the life of my family, what have you done?

Friday, March 19, 2010


I have been out of school for ten years. I am planning on getting my Associates Degree in Allied Medical Science. WOOT! GO ME!!!

Classes start on the 1st of April, I'm hoping to have all my paperwork and exam done by Monday evening!

And to think...I started early this morning looking on Craigslist for a full time 1st or 3rd shift job, only for Brian's car to catch fire, leaving us back down to 1 vehicle, to looking online for an online job that I can do from home, and now I'm in the beginning phases of starting college!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I Nearly Peed Myself

A gal that I converse with on a regular basis shared a blog with me..well she shared it with a group of us, but I digress. It's just random phrases...all typed down by a young wife. The thing that makes it so great is she has a tape recorder going over night to record the out loud musing of her new husband....while he's that she can share it with the world. Just kinda hoping Brian doesn't get any wild ideas...I'm not sure I want to know *everything* I say in my sleep.

I laughed like a banshee! The kids thought I'd lost my mind, but if they don't know I did that a long time ago, they're in for some eye opening when they do realize it....although I do believe Mikeal is starting to notice, a LOT,OFTEN; Mikaila still thinks it's just mommy being silly, so it's a lot of great fun! Hey! What two year old wouldn't love having a mommy that runs through the house after her while screaming and laughing hysterically...and sometimes I do it because I'm playing with her.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

This Area

What can I say? It's gorgeous, perfect, just awesome! Immediately around me there are a few houses, but none right on top of me, the view from my front door is of a field, with a few houses on the other side of the field, the view from the back, just of fields. Off to each side there are some trailer houses, but unlike the trailer houses I'm used to seeing these are well kept, the yards are riddled with garbage or junk vehicles...In fact I have yet to see a single place in this area that reminds me of the general scenery around Oklahoma! There are real fact I have yet to see an area that is remotely flat. As previously mentioned nearly every house is on the side of a hill, making a basement almost mandated for building a house, which would be ideal in an area such as flat Oklahoma, where tornadoes are a year round occurrences.
Mikeal's school is only 10 years old and is beautiful! Although there is quite a high number of students there it makes picking him up after school quite the chore! The waiting line is a few blocks long, at least, the school also sits at the top of the hill, so the waiting line "waves" down one hill, up the next where the school sits and there's another road that wraps down the hill the other direction. In class he has recently been doing worksheets on “Learning Chinese”, basically just some worksheets that give him the symbols for different numbers or words and he has to draw those symbols into the proper mathematical equation or sentence. I thought it was pretty cool.

But the greatest part is where we live where it looks like the "middle of nowhere" it's only a 10 minute drive into town. A town where there's a Big Lots, multiple grocery stores, a huge Wal-Mart, outlet stores, a Lowe's, Aldi's, various restaurants & fast food - choices that don't just limit you to McDonalds or Sonic, Pizza Hut, Mexican, or the lone Chinese place - you name it, it's just right down the road, it's not a whole day trip to go shopping for something other than what you'd find at Wal-Mart or the Dollar Store, even a big mall isn't that far, only a 30 minute or so drive down the road to Nashville! I'm so stoked! It's all the privacy one would want in the "middle of nowhere" but all the conveniences of living in the city.

The convenience rivals when we lived in Austin! Plus there is an abundance of flea markets, thrift stores, second hand places, you name it. I absolutely love it here!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The House

Yes, it's been a while. As previously mentioned we moved to Tennessee from Oklahoma. The packing and drive out was quite uneventful, minus the court hearing that held us up, as outlined in my previous post. The getting unpacked and moved into our place was quite fun though. We ended up spending a week with our new landlords, which was great, I was a bit unnerved from the stress of everything, feeding off of the stress Brian was feeling, and just plain exhaustion. I felt completely out of my element and a bit overwhelmed, but I'm settling in now, learning my way around, and getting everything situated.

I LOVE the house! It's perfect for us! Lots and lots of space, nearly 2500 sq ft, three official bedrooms, with another bedroom type area in the basement and plenty of room to make other areas of the house into bedroom quality.

It spreads across three levels, a basement that has its own bathroom, a bedroom, laundry room, two large closets, two storage rooms, a work bench, and enough space left over where one would be able to park one, if not two vehicles in there....seriously, the basement alone is bigger than the house we just moved out of.

Going up the basement stairs you'll enter into the kitchen, right at the top of the stairs is the backdoor that goes out onto the upper level of the two level decks. See this house, like most houses in this area, sits on the side of a hill, where the basement could be used as a garage if one chose to use it as such. It's not your traditional basement/house set up, there's a door and windows alone two sides of the basement, the other two sides are "underground", thus the front door of the house is basically ground level, but the back door is a whole level above the ground.

Ok, back to the specifications of the house interior. Walking into the kitchen you're in the midst of a window wrapped eat in area where a small breakfast table would be the perfect place to sit and watch the sunrise while drinking coffee first thing in the morning, but also a gorgeous place to sit while watching the sunset in the evening while enjoying a yummy dessert after dinner. Currently it serves as the dog & cat's dining area, my food pantry cabinet space, and the trashcan area...maybe one of these days I'll get a table to put in there, but for now it serves its purpose well. In this kitchen I have about twice as many cupboards as I did in the old place, it's great, room to put everything, although the more I think about it I may move my new hutch into the eat-in dining area and put all my kitchen appliances on that to free up countertop space, I just haven't been here long enough to get it all figured out yet. I doubly love the two huge windows that are above the sink. The view just overlooks a field and some trees, but I can also see the whole backyard & lower driveway area as well as have a great chance to watch the sunset as I do dishes or cook dinner.

From the kitchen you walk into the actual dining room. I have a beautiful white with a butcher block top table with two benches and two chairs dining room table. I also have my computer desk/office area in there. The litter box does sit in there, but I have it hidden with my dressing screen, so unless you look behind the screen you won't see it. There's also a huge window that basically stretches from floor to ceiling and wall to wall in there, it's currently covered by a vertical blinds that I may end up changing out for some white lacy curtains.

From the dining room you can go up the stairs to the third level. Up there is a spacious landing area and room type area where we have the kids' TV & shared toys for the playroom. Mikeal's bedroom is also up there, just past the playroom. There's a long closet that the kids love to run through back and forth chasing each other. Mikeal's room is the biggest bedroom of the house and because I haven't taken the time nor really had the time with him it still looks quite bare! Hopefully this weekend I'm able to take him to get his own room decorations and curtains.
Mikaila also has her own room that is just down the hall from Brian & my bedroom, with a large bathroom between the two rooms on the main floor. Her going to bed has not been half the battle it has been in the past now! I'll lay her down after her nightly bedtime routine and sometimes she'll fuss around for a bit, other nights she'll settle right in and go to sleep. SUCH a blessing there, I actually get some wind down time in the evenings to get the kitchen cleaned up after dinner, watch an entire show, and just hang out with Brian.

In mine & Brian's bedroom there are two sections to the closet, one for him, one for me, so my clothes are no longer getting lost behind his and his shoes aren't being swamped by my own, there's also adequet room to walk around three sides of the bed, use the dresser, and open/close the door without having to move the bed at least a foot any direction to access everything! Space for a clothing hamper, you name it. Its not as big as the bedroom upstairs but it's a comfortable space!

Then there's the HUGE living room...well, at least huge in comparison to the one we just left. We have a large red brick fireplace with built in shelves on both sides, we have three bookshelves along the one wall, with plenty of space for more if we wanted. Three huge windows across the front where we have a gorgeous view of the sunrise & moonrise! We have room in here for REAL furniture. We have a full size matching couch & loveseat, a huge oversized chair, and a leather recliner in here, not to mention a coffee table and matching end tables! And because of all the space in the rest of the house the living room no longer HAS to double as a playroom, my bookshelves can actually store, of all things, BOOKS, instead of being loaded down with toys, and the like. We also still have room to spare in the living room...which right now just serves as a storage area of sorts (basically just a space where I have things put because I haven't figured out a place for the rest of the stuff in here).

The front door opens up to the large front upper level of the deck. For now I just have my old metal/glass dining room table out there, but do plan on getting some chairs to go with the table and some greenery to make it more comfortable out there and just more homey feeling.
I do love the house, and at some point in time I do plan on sharing pictures of both the old place and the new place for comparison, but alas, there is a drawback to living here. Yes, there was bound to be one. See, this house sits quite a bit off the main routes, where the road is paved, but internet access is lacking in possibilities....hence the reason for my sparse appearance online. I've been waiting for the last week for the technician to come out and connect my second phone line...yes, I have access via dial-up, nothing else is available in this area, but after calling to confirm when someone would be coming out to hook-up my internet line I found out that the order had been inadvertently cancelled, so here I've been waiting for a week and there wasn't even an order for the line to be installed...grrrr...hopefully tomorrow when I call back there will have been some progress made towards my phone line being connected and I'm praying I'm able to get online before the start of the weekend.

I also have some sad news to desktop computer fried somehow on the drive out here, it's not wanting to boot up, even after I took it apart, cleaned it, checked the connections, etc, the fans will come on, but the BIOS is not doing it's'd appear that my motherboard short circuited somehow, so thankfully we did get Brian a laptop that I'm able to take with me and post here and there from a hotspot, or while hanging out at the landlord's place, but all my pictures, music, videos, notes, you name it, are all on the other hard drive, and I don't have the money currently to either buy a new motherboard or an external hard drive reader....

So that concludes this entry